|| When did you know you were gay? I mean, like, when did you thought "oh look, i like guys"? (hoping it's not an offensive question because i didn't mean it like that)|
Oh anon, that’s not offensive at all. In fact, I love questions like this, and if you or anyone else have questions about my sexuality, past, or anything involving my life, I encourage you to ask. It’s the reason I have an askbox. You’re free to ask this stuff off anon as well.
I first suspected I was gay when I was five and really liked my best friend. I really suspected I was gay when I was seven and blew kisses at a neighborhood boy who gave me funny feelings in my stomach. Feelings like that continued until I was about 10 and puberty started.
That’s when I understood why I had conflicting feelings about things. Why boys made me nervous, why I wanted to spend time with them but be closer than friends, why I sometimes smiled to myself when I saw certain ones.
There are numerous instances of me knowing I was gay, because I’ve known it all my life. Sometimes it’s hard to answer this question because I have different moments to choose from. But yeah, I think 10 is when I went from being “I don’t understand why I feel this way, I think I’m gay” to “Oh yeah, I’m gay.”